Dear diary,

Why do I have to feel crappy like this? ever since last term :( If only I have the words to describe how I feel. Part of my life is kinda described with Archuleta's song, A little too not over you. So, I was walking home by myself today and kept on listening to this song on my iPod. Poor me, I don't know what to do. I kinda cried while walking home. Lucky I was just by myself and somehow I didn't have tears coming out of my eyes but I just felt that it did.

I really don't know what I want. Is it Train? or is it Plane? or is it someone else? I just got my heart a bit broken by plane today :( so I don't really want to talk about it. Somehow, even though I don't see train, I still have that feeling inside that stops me from forgetting him. :'( Why is this so hard for me? Although this wasn't supposed to be a hard thing to do. Anyways, I don't know what to do. It seems like being me is just the wrong thing to do. I'm just apologizing for being me.

Anyways, yesterday, I was in timmy's with my brother and we sat beside a table with 3 people on it. So there was a guy sitting beside a girl, let's call him guy A and another guy was sitting across from guy A, call him guy B. So then I was talking to my brother and he was telling me how he went to a Google meeting and he got stickers. I was taking a look at it and there were 3 stickers. Google, Picasa and Blogger. That sign that you see somewhere in my blog if it is visible. It just says B in an orange box but it's cute :D So I was so excited for it and suddenly there's this conversation that started on the other table.

B: "What language are they speaking / where are they from?"
A: "Singapore"
B: "I thought singaporean speaks english?"
A: "No" (saying it proudly)

then I just started laughing and telling my brother how they were talking about us and not realizing that I might understand what they are talking. hahahahaahhahahaha so this is how it goes with me and my brother

me: "Dar, mereka kira kita orang sg (singapore in short form)"
me: "Dar, they thought that we are singaporean"

Darius: "masa sih?"
Darius: "really?"

me: "beneran. dia ngomong pake bahasa c kalo kita orang sg"
me: "for real. They were saying in chinese that we are singaporean."

Darius: "singapur?"
Darius: "singapore?"

Then after my brother said that, the people on the table just paused and stopped looking at us. hahahaha it was so funny. But I was like "why did you have to say it out loud" hahahahaha but then it was hillarious. and my brother wanted to just go up to one of the guys and gave him his hand while saying "Hi! I'm from Indonesia not Singapore" huahahahah when I heard that, I started cracking up! huahahahha

anyways, now that I feel better, I should prepare my food so that I can eat :D and probably read a bit also.

xoxo
Cuppycake

currently listening ~ a little too not over you - David Archuleta ~

So, continuing from yesterday's post,

after the lunch buffet, me, my sister and my dad went to Waterloo park to take some pictures. Well, my sister wanted to catch the squirrels, although it was kinda cold out there. So then, we saw a deer in the petting zoo. SO CUTE!!! We went back home afterwards coz it was getting colder.

The next day, we woke up early to get to Toronto. Well, waited for the bus at BMH :D yipee!! so then we got to the hotel, Sheraton Centre and checked in. We checked in like 3 hrs before the time. :D and we got the city hall view ^^ pretty.. coz there were a lot of ppl ice skating. Plus, I just found out how to get to the mall via underground from the hotel :D I shopped for christmas presents ^^ and then, I went to the crepes place near paramount theatre with my sister and my brother. I was going to buy something for my dad, but then we didn't have enough hands and he was taking pictures too. I got the crepes with some rum in it! it was DELICIOUS!!!!

Went back, got scolded because I didn't invite him to go :( booo!!! then the next day, our plan was to go to CN tower and ROM but it was foggy.. well the sky was.. so then my dad said that it's useless if we go to CN tower and just see the fog. Then, we spent the whole day at ROM. Got to see a lot of cool stuff! went back earlier, but me and my sister went to eaton centre. bought a bit more stuff then head home coz we were going to meet my far cousin and eat at the keg. :D yipee.. there's an underground way too but it takes way too long! the restaurant was right behind my hotel :p hehehehe

the next day was christmas. everything closed except for rogers centre coz we were going there to watch disney on ice. it was AWESOME! as expected, there were a lot of little kids.. so then went back home to Waterloo and chilled! Opened everyone's presents. :D yipee I got a plane ticket to LA as wished!

next day, boxing day. Didn't go out at all. well, I'm saving for LA :D yipee ^^ and then well, my dad left at night. :( but my sister is still here :D yay!

for the next few days, my days are just boring at home :p hahahaha went out to buy my ticket and stayed home for most of the time. well, monday, we went to watch bedtime stories. it was funny seeing bugsy, the big-eyed guinea pig. huahahahaha SO CUTE! must watch

then well, today is new years! YIPEE!!!! not gonna do anything except watching a marathon of suite life on deck. and doing laundry! hopefully no one's doing laundry today and they're gone out of town somewhere. :D

ok then.. I'm gonna do something right now, althought I still don't know what that would be. :D

xoxo
Cuppycake

2 months... and more (++) has passed, and I haven't been updating my blog nowadays...

Exams are over a few weeks ago, results came out. Well, one wasn't satisfying but I already predicted that. So then my dad got here, then my sister and my mom got here :D yipee!!!

I spent the holidays going to Niagara falls, Toronto and just here, in Waterloo...

I went to niagara on the last day of my exam. I was so terrified that the exam might get cancelled because of the snow storm, but then, for the first time, I shouted "yes! I have an exam today" just because I didn't want to miss all the fun that the other family members are going to have.. :D hehehehe so I went there (Niagara) by myself after exam. The bus was late for like 2 hrs!! Lucky that I met Margaret in the bus station. She was going to Hamilton, so I was happy that at least 1/2 of my journey, I will have someone that I know sitting beside me. So then, once I got to Niagara, the weather was SO BAD!! the wind was blowing so strong!! and I called a cab. Well, another guy also called for a cab but I got in first coz I called first. Then, I just enjoyed my journey in Niagara. The hotel was great, except the location was kinda far from the falls. We had to go down hill to the falls, and I hate going down hills... especially steep hills!!

I got to go to Ripley's believe it or not, and Hershey's factory :D and I got to watch Beauty and the Beast musical. It was so GOOD!!! :D The actress acting Belle is very beautiful!! I guess that's why they call her beauty :D Then the next day, snow storm came in again! pshhh!! so we couldn't go anywhere except just staying at the hotel until we left for the bus terminal.

We got home safely :D and... just rested :D it was a fun journey but my throat got sore :( *sobs* then the next day, we went to University club to have our christmas lunch buffet. It was actually very nice :D yipee!!! a lot of staff members there. old ppl too! somehow... I don't know how that happens.

Well, I have to go out for a while now. I'll continue writing once I come back home :D

Currently, a lot of thing has happened.
From me writing for mathNews, me going to WIM, hanging out with Jasmine and the guys everyday hahaha, went to karaoke, went to Toronto, being emo, went to eat ye's sushi, and again.. hanging out at mathsoc!

I've written twice for mathNews now. It's quite fun considering I get pizza every production night :D sigh... sometimes I know what I want to write about but then I just don't know how to start... so cruel!

once, we had this WIM spa/games night. I had a tattoo made by Kendra :D It's so pretty!!!
and I had my finger nails polished in different colors too!!

I also went for Karaoke with the guys and one time, I got so emo that I kept on crying the whole night. sigh.. WOMEN!!! why do we have to be so emo! gahhh.... but the night went better after hot pot and some talking with Andy while the others were playing wii in my living room. haha it was fun.. and we had to kill flies that somehow were bombarding my living room. Throughout this whole time I haven't wrote anything, 2 of my hamsters died AGAIN! one of them were the girls.. geezz what's up!!!! so aggressive!!

We just went out to ye's sushi last saturday. Fun considering there were 8 ppl on the table and 6 guys.. hahaha too many ppl so we ordered like tons of sushi and a lot of other stuff. Me and Jasmine were addicted to the edamame and we called it "the green thing with crystal meth" hahaha it was a joke! We were also talking about charity ball because we had no dates :p so funny!!! and then when we were done, we went with Dmitry's car to Chester's house to play Dungeons and Dragons. And Chester and Matt has a cat that actually pushed my boots down to dust and it got dirty :( it was UGGS!! and I got a little bit mad coz it was still new.. Then I went home at like around 11 30 because I just follow Dmitry in his car. My place is the furthest from the other ppl.

So the week before sushi.. I went to Toronto and got to meet up with some of my friends. I was supposed to go there with the 9 am bus from UW, but then I overslept and went with the 1 30 bus instead. I got there around 3 30 and started shopping at Hollister. By 1 1/2 hrs, I already got a few shopping bags. hahaha RECORD! I was with handoko at that time and then went around and got to eat at salad king! :D yipee.. and went around and bought my UGGS.. AT LAST!! I was waiting to buy it and I feel like Toronto's price is cheaper than here *but still expensive* so I bought it. It's the longest one and in chestnut color. *Hence, why I was kinda pissed when the cat knocked it down* but then turns out that it was kinda my fault too coz I put it beside that cat's food. hahahaha.. I got to buy the 168 green tea + aloe drink that I really like. It's so expensive they sell it for 3.99 a bottle + tax in school... and when I went to 168 shop in Toronto with my friends, it was like only 1.69 + tax per bottle, so I bought 5 of them. 2 for Jasmine 3 for me :D Then, I went back home with Jasmine. It's so much fun. haha We had another heart to heart talk in the bus till once the bus driver scolded us because Jasmine was laughing/shouting kind of loud. :p but it's ok...

As for hanging out at mathsoc, I took a pic of us in mathsoc one day. FOR FUN! Today everything just got more interesting.. I don't think I can say it here but it's so interesting hahaha!!! Now, mathsoc is like my second home. So if you can't find me at school, best bet is to look at mathsoc first.
So for the next few weeks if I'm not writing, I'm probably going to be at mathsoc again. My plan is to go to Toronto on halloween for ci Angel's bachelorette party. Should be exciting! hehehe :D and charity ball and math leader banquet. hopefully I get a date :D *crossing my fingers*


xoxo
Cuppycake

So this is already the first week of October. So fast!!!
I'll have my first midterm next next week >< ahhh so scary!!! and I have 3 assignments due next tuesday and I have to enroll for Winter 2009 and I have another assignment due next wednesday. This is so terrifying!!! aaaaa

I also wrote for mathNews that came out yesterday. It was fun :p hahaa I'm gonna write again for the next issue ^^

Well, I've been watching How I met Your Mother. It's so funny. and there are a lot of interesting things have been happening lately. I don't think I can write it here but anyways, it's interesting. and I have been hanging out in mathSoc these days. it's so much fun. I've never been hanging out before. It's fuN!!!!

anyways, I'm watching season 2 right now of HIMYM and I'm gonna play solitaire and hard coring my assignment :D

xoxo
cuppycake

So today is like already the 2nd weekend of school. It's so fast... :( well but I'm happy that I've been hanging out with ppl nowadays :D

I baked shortbread cookie on monday. It was good :D I'm gonna make some more to give to ppl ^^ anyways... so last weekend I went to ben thanh to eat on friday. It was good :D Then we watched this show in discovery channel which was SICK!!! hahaha then I can't remember what I did on the saturday and sunday.

Well, then on monday, I baked the cake and gave it to Jasmine and Mike. At night, they came to my place and we played wii. hahaha it was so much fun!!!

So yesterday we went to ben thanh again. but this time, there're like 9 ppl!!! hahha. there were me, Mike, Kendra, Kai, Andrew, Vanessa, Sunray, Jason and another guy I think Kevin. Then, we went back from ben thanh to Kendra's place. We ended up watching scary movie 1 hahha which was SICK!!! :p

So today, the plan is to go karaoke at night. Can't wait till then :D So right now I'm just waiting for my laundry, teaching Jasmine cs, and planning to iron my clothes and also going to continue my assignment :D hehe.. I really want to download a lot of songs right now :p

So sunday was officially the end of orientation week.

So monte carlo night was AWESOME!!! went to the Tarot Card reading and even made more new friends ^^ The new shoes that I bought just for monte carlo gave me blisters by the end of the night but then I managed to change back to my flip flops and went back home with Jesse.

Then on the friday, I get to sleep a lot coz the scavenger hunt required us to get to school by 4 i think? I can't remember but anyways. So then I went with Michael to UWP and post signs that says the scavenger hunt is not cancelled because it was raining. Then I accompanied Michael to eat at Harvey's :p So we got back to school, and then hung out at the comfy with Yale, Jacqueline and the other ppl who were there. It was fun so yea...

I had my own swag list, so I was so excited. I started to run around the classroom from like 9. :p It's interesting how they gave me a superhero stuffed animal, pirate spongebob and newton's cradle. :p Even a guy wearing a wonder woman t-shirt. hahahhaa just can't forget those moments!!!

I managed to hang out on the 5th floor with Eric and Michael. It was fun hahaha and then so the day ended with Dare Dividal winning the trophy. Cool!!! well, Kaelyn got her Harry Potter puppet pals that was just so funny. Hillarious I should say.

Saturday was the black & gold event and also toga. I slept through black & gold day coz I was too tired. I went to toga and took some pictures. :D happy2. I stayed at toga, but then Jesse came and told me that I had to be in SLC helping out navigating. So, I navigated till like 1:30 and then went back home again with Jesse. Somehow, Jesse called me Xiao Mei Mei and it was so cute!!! hahaha...

So sunday, me, Jasmine, Kai, Michael and Andrew hung out at night coz we didn't have anything else to do. We ate and then they came to my place. You should have seen how shocked they were. I was too embarassed. :p It's fun though with the company :D

School started on monday. :( my classes were so boring I swear I almost fell asleep in all of the classes. Then yea.. I met Kendra and gave her my usb key so that she can give me the pics from o-week. It's cool how there were a lot of leaders in my classes. So it's like a reunion :D.

This school year, I have a goal. My goal is to possibly go out more and join like WIM so I can meet more friends :D So, if anyone asks me out, I can go anywhere if I don't have any hw or busy.

So yesterday, when I was trying to feed my hamsters, one of my fav hamsters died :( it hurts me but I'm ok now. so yea...

last friday, I got an email from campus copy asking me if I would like to work at campus copy in mc. I was too excited so I'm like okay :D. Then on monday, coz I woke up late, I only came at 2:30. I missed the 8 am shift. But it was okay coz I directly emailed her about it. On monday evening after I got back home, I saw another email from campus copy. It said that it was actually a misunderstanding. The person who was supposed to be away, is not away. So i was actually not needed there. But they decided to actually still pay me until wednesday. So I worked for 2 hrs, but paid for like 11 hrs :D yipee ^^

Today.... I went to school like at 11:30 and ate at school. Gave my course notes to Mike and yea. Hopefully all of us from o-week can become very good friends ^^ I'm just so happy about this year. Everything is just too beautiful :D I will never forget it. EVER!!!!!

I felt emo since monday until yesterday. I think it was because I didn't have enough sleep. well, Jasmine came tuesday night and slept over at my place. :D nice company ^^ and then on wednesday, she had to be on a stand for watastic and selling moon cakes. and I got a lot of them :D hehehe happy ^^

so yea... so I went home after 6:30 because jasmine wasn't done yet and I was too tired and cranky. Then, I slept like at 10:30 or something and this morning I felt so refreshed! No more cranky and I felt happier :D Hopefully I can wake up tomorrow and don't feel cranky and sleepy again :D Before I slept, Jesse IM-ed me through fb. hehee it made my day!! :D

It's almost a month of me not writing in this blog again.

So orientation week have began since Sunday but I have been busy like 2 weeks before that because I was helping out Kaelyn and then I had my driving course (theory part). It's exciting :D

O-week started and I'm already tired on the first day because I had to hand out bracelets and I didn't get to sit for a long time. My betis and my thighs were getting cramps. Then for the second day, which is on Monday, I get to sit down more. and yea I made new friends ^^ loadz of them.

We had a leader send-off party on sunday night. It was okay but I mean the music was TOO LOUD!!! It made my ears have some beating sound. It's deafening and I was getting headache because of it. I was hanging out with Joanna there. Then we did our math dance like at the end of the day and left after we were done.

So then on monday, the central reg was done at 6. So me and a few more ppl who were helping out went over to get burgers and then went back again to help clean up. I went back home, did my laundry, washed my gear and then went to sleep.

So yesterday, which is a tuesday, I was supposed to meet at school at 7:30 in the morning. I guess I was too tired so I woke up at 7:30. sigh.... felt so bad but it's okay. Turns out that everyone were signing up for shifts for monte carlo. sigh... and I didn't get to do that. and I felt bad again!!! well the day was running okay. I was with Catherine doing superhero costume. It was fun watching the first years making costumes for the leaders and we get to grade them. After we were done with the day, me, Diana, Bryanne, Lyle and Didy went to eat. It was fun haha and then I went back home.

So now I'm planning to go to Conestoga mall soon so that I can buy a nice pair of shoes for tomorrow's monte carlo night. I'm so excited but felt bad because I don't know who am I going to be partnered with. :( so sad... But yea... hopefully everything turns out well. and tonight I have to go back to school at 6 for another event. I guess I have to get ready soon.

I'll write soon and I'll write bout monte carlo later on. I found a cute guy yesterday!! so happy :p hahaha I'm crazy... I just remembered that I can get my new dress today :D that's good ^^

yesterday, I got a lot of hugs which made me so happy ^^ especially from someone :D hehe

ok...

so my plan didn't went as what I wrote in the previous post.

so what I did on monday after the final exam ended was that I went to subway to eat and then went to canadian tire. I wanted to buy TCBY but then felt too full and the previous day I already drank bubble tea so I didn't want to buy it. Then actually I bought one big storage box for my bags, then 1 small one for magazines and a storage rack. It's actually enough for me to use to clean the house. Well, I need 2 more small ones for my school books but yea... I guess I forgot to take into account about the 2 blue boxes that I've bought previously.

As for my stats exam, I don't know if I can survive. but I think I did okay in it. Just crossing my fingers that I can at least get a 50. I have a lot of faith in my cs 241 final mark though. I believe I did well.

then yesterday I went to conestoga mall. There's this new shoe store called jovelle. I went in and they already started selling uggs. but it's so expensive ><>< kyaa i really want to buy them but I'm still thinking. maybe later... I also saw some heels which were very nice. maybe if I get a job then I'll start shopping again. :p I really want uggs and a new winter jacket from aritzia kya....

so right now I really don't know where to go. it's either going to fairview mall or going to zehrs. sigh and it's starting to have small thunder sounds. I DON'T KNOW!!! ><

anyways... I'm going to take a shower first and then decide later. I'm going to the keg tonight ^^ yay get to eat some fancy food but then yesterday I just went to ben tan and ate a lot!!!

I forgot when, but I went to bubble tea and bought like 3 of them to bring home. haha I just finished one yesterday, and there are 1 1/2 left now.. hahaha

okay.. I'm gonna get ready now..

xoxo
Cuppycake <3

okay so I haven't written in my blog for some time that's coz I'm still having my final exam. sigh.. it's a never ending process... like they say in CS, recursion...

just did my cs final yesterday and I still have one more which is stats on monday. I'm seriously confused how to study. probably just keep on memorizing the formulas and just know how to do them. >< seriously i still remembered how I did previously. It was not pretty but then that time I wasn't doing the stuff seriously. Now, I'm doing everything by myself so I should understand much better now. well at least yeah that's what I think :D

I have everything all planned out about what to do after my final exam is done. hahaha I'm so fully prepared :D

on monday after the exam is done, which is like at 11:30 am, I'm gonna get ice cream at TCBY and then go take the #29 bus to go to canadian tire. or maybe go to zehrs first to get vim to clean my house then go to canadian tire.

Then, once I get back home, I will organize my stuff, particularly my clothes haha, my bags and my shoes (with the storage box that i will buy in canadian tire) because I don't want to shock my parents when they come. And I also need to buy storage box for my school binders. I still don't know how many do I have to buy but yea maybe i can imagine there ^^ then I'm going to wash stuff that I need to wash by hand, then i will do laundry also for my clothes.

Then the next day, I will iron my clothes and fold them so that it can be organized. Then, I will do laundry for my bed sheets, towels, and the sofa bed covers so then while waiting i will take out the trash and vacuum the carpets. if I can make it in time before the laundry finishes, I will try to wash the washroom also. sigh so many things to do!! haven't do cleaning for like a term. then, I will re-organize the stuff in my kitchen also. then probably I'll bring some stuff that needs dry cleaning to the dry cleaners.

It's all gonna be fun!!! yeay gonna lose weight again :D hehe

o yea, then i also need to clean my hamsters' cage. sigh.. so frustrating. and the pack of food that i just bought in the end of june is almost done!! wth!! crazy hamsters eat a lot.

well I need to continue studying again for my stats coz i really don't want to fail it AGAIN!! >< hikz...

xoxo
cuppycake

so I probably have been writing anything in here for a week. well, the term ended *at last* and now the not so exciting part, final exam. sigh... mine is starting on the 8th and then another one is on the 11th. sucky!!!

I haven't started studying but I will try starting tomorrow or sunday. hehe I just watched "love contract" in mysoju. Well, it is kind of interesting. ><>< and i'm loving the song right now.

oh yea, on Wednesday, Jasmine, Bryanne, Kelly, Cynthia, Zi, and me went to have an EOT gathering. some ppl couldn't make it but it's still okay :p. Cynthia left after we ate dinner and Kelly came after we finished dinner. it was fun :D I wanna do that again next time ^^ kekeke and I won jenga :D but I still answered the truth question ^^

ok i'm gonna take a shower, relax and sleep ^^ maybe turn on the air con and watch tv.. uuu it will be so nice ^^

xoxo
Cuppycake

So, it has been around almost a week since I last wrote in here. It feels so fast. Anyways... not a lot of things happened, but it was all okay.

So, I managed to tell what I was feeling to the guy. Well, I kinda feel bad but that's what I had to do. So, I'm just feeling a little bit sorry.

So on thursday, I had this volunteer meeting for student life 101 so that I can meet the ppl that are going to be in my team Kirby :D Only 6 ppl showed up but it was good. Then I stayed until like around 10 with Joanna to help out with the brochures.

Well, that morning, after class, I went to federation xpress a.k.a fedex, to buy ice cream. And I saw 2 of my fav ice cream and i thought i could have a little bit of everything but then I was given like a very big bowl with loadz of ice cream and it only cost like $2.18. it was so good.


<-- combination of choco chip cookie dough and strawberry cheesecake :D yummy and this is like half of everything. So then on friday, I was actually very tired.


So I managed to stay awake until around 4 because I was waiting for my DS to finish charging and I went to sleep. Then, I woke up at around 8 and watched tv with my air con on. it feels so good. and I ate the bomber pizza that I bought earlier in the morning. Now I believe Cora that they have the best crust ^^ it doesn't taste like pizza pizza's crust. It's like tim horton's biscuit's taste. It's yummy. Even the bbq sauce is so different. Everything is good :D. Then I went back to sleep again like around 2 and managed to wake up around 6 on sat for student life 101. I prepared myself and I went to school. Everything starts and I didn't know that my allergies towards my sun screen would show up. (I only found out that it was allergies towards my sun screen until I remembered the same thing happened for Canada day). Then, I started going crazy about this cute guy. Well, he was doing a skit with me in the same group and I always melt whenever I see him >< :p Well then I hung out with Marie, Cynthia, Leslie, Tiffany and not that much with Nancy and Wendi. We were joking around. I kept on tickling Tiffany and she kept on saying I'm cute. haha it was so funny. Then I was talking about celebrating my 20th on the 20th next year. See, this is gonna be special and I want the special ppl to be there.


I actually took a pic with Marie and the school's mascot when he was coming out of PAC. :D I've never seen the mascot before so I looked like a little girl who really wanted to get a pic with mickey mouse. hahaha




After everything was done, I went back home and like took a shower and put an after sun gel on my allergies. It felt better and I went to wash my dishes coz my kitchen starts to stink a little. Then I fed my hamsters and watched tv for a while coz I accidentally wet my clothes. Then I actually fell asleep coz I was too tired like around 8. Then I went to bed. Managed to wake up like around 9 the next morning. I was going to continue sleeping but I thought to myself that I've been sleeping for too long and I'm starting to get dizzy. So I walked towards my computer and started doing my CS assignment. In the afternoon like around 1, Jasmine called me and asked if I wanted to go watch dark knight. and I'm like sure :D So me, Jasmine and Zi went to watch the movie. We sat like almost at the front because of the not-so-nice grandma. and we thought that grandmas are supposed to be nice. The movie was so cool, I swear that I can't stop looking at Christian Bale. He's so cute >< but he is married... what's with all these cute guys and the married status.. sigh!!

So yea that's kind of the whole story till now. :D hehe :p I'll write again later

xoxo
Cuppycake

Hi,

So yesterday I made some cookies for fun coz I was so lazy to do my homework, don't know why. I've been nervous since yesterday like until probably this morning. Plus, I had a kind of weird dream. Well more or less made me couldn't go back to sleep again.


The pic on the left is the cookie that I made. Well, it still on the baking sheet since yesterday because I feel pity to eat them :p
It sucks that my brother won't even try it. :( although it's quite good :D toopid brother!! :p




Somehow I just feel like crying right now ><>< Without them, I would be reckless.

Miss Cherie... I miss u so much.. I told you >< I really want to hug you right now. I miss you A LOT LOT LOT <3
Mo, thx for understanding everything that I've been telling you. Somehow, we are always on the same page.
Sel, although you're so far away >< I still miss you though sometimes I don't talk to u in msn for soooo long. It's fun to talk to you again.
Pris, come back here soon so it's easier to tell you everything ><
Angel, thx for listening to me every lunch time. You never said anything and yet you still listen to me. ><

I'm in a huge dilemma right now and I don't know what to do ><>< help!! Somehow in class today, I managed to day dream although I was listening carefully throughout the lecture. I day dreamed that I would be making plans to go out with cherie back home. Go out with our family to have dinner together or something.

sigh and I just can't forget part of two songs that I really like.

"you'll always be a part of me, i'm a part of you indefinitely"
" who doesn't long for someone to hold; who knows how to love you without being told"

It's just so beautiful >< the words really got into me that it makes me almost cry.

anyways, I'm gonna try fixing my homework now.. i'll write again next time

xoxo
Cuppycake

So, yesterday night. It was so exciting. I get to talk to cherie, selly and him :p hehehe

Well, I was gonna say something but he said it first. :p hoho so I didn't feel that bad :p Me and Selly were talking about stuff coz we haven't been chatting for a long time. She told me back home there's a sim card that only costs Rp 1 for one phone call not for one hour. crazy eh...

Right now, my purpose to write in here is to quote some songs. I really like the lyrics so.. i'll quote the words

Soulmate - Natasha Bedingfield
"Is it possible, Mr. Lovable is already in my life; right in front of me or maybe you're in disguise"

"Who doesn't long for someone to hold; who knows how to love you without being told"

When I grow up - PCD
"But be careful what you wish for ; 'Cause you just might get it"

A Whatever Life - Haylie Duff
" Was it my mistake,or did we just get too close?
Until we meet again I think you better learn to...

Live, for the sake of livin'.
Love, til' your heart is breakin'.
Give your all and don't hold back.
Tell the truth and don't forget to,
Laugh til' your body's acken.
Cry til' your hands are shakin'.
Wherever you go,whatever you do,
Don't live, a whatever life."

"Was it just a dream, or did we feel something real?"

Well right now I'm just listening to David Cook's always be my baby song :D
sigh.. it's so beautiful :D

okay maybe I'll write again later

xoxo
Cuppycake

It has been quite a few days since I've updated my blog.

So, what I've done recently:
- Stat 231 midterm
- CS 241 assignment
- Orientation Leader Conference
- Team Leader meeting (Student Life 101)

So for my midterm, I'm quite confident that I will get a good grade *crossing my fingers*. I believe I understood things more than before. Because stats midterm was on thursday night, I was struggling with cs 241 assignment that's due on friday. I just realized that I did it wrong on thursday night when I posted something on the news group and I was like *sigh..* and I had to redo it until 4:30 a.m and it wasn't still right. When I was about to sleep, the lightning, thunder, and rain came. First the lightning strike so bright (because I didn't have any curtains on my window) and the thunder was rolling so loud. I got kind of scared and I had to sleep. So, I decided to cover my head with my blanket. I managed to sleep and woke up at 7:30 a.m. Then, I went to school for my tutorial session. Guess what, my TA was late when I thought I was going to be late to class. So I just read the mathNews and read Chester's recipe. It's quite good, so I decided that I want to try making it :D hehe. (Maybe if I succeed, I can cook it for my parents when they come here and they can be proud of me :D )

So then after the tutorial, I went to the prof and asked for help and he told me to add some more stuff. Still, I didn't manage to get it right until like 5 p.m. So I went back home and asked my brother to help me. Finally I got it done and me and my brother went to east side mario's to eat. It was good :D I got salad and a desert with very delicious custard on it. yumm (thinking of it makes me want to go there and eat it again). When I got back home, I was thinking about sleeping but instead, I watched "Virgin Snow" at mysoju. The characters were not that beautiful but it was some movie. Almost made me cry but didn't. The girl is innocent though. And I turned on my alarm clock and slept.

As expected (if I didn't turn on the radio alarm), I woke up late. Like when I was supposed to wake up (7:30), I just woke up and turned off the alarm from the cell and went back to sleep. Probably because I was too tired and I only got like 3 hours of sleep the night before. I felt so guilty and I woke up at 11:30 a.m. I was late for my OLC. I felt so bad so I rushed and went to school. I was sweating like a pig when I was reaching MC. Lucky I don't have to pay for any fees because at least I came for one session. So bad... hahaha

Then today came. Well, on friday night I told my mom to just talk on skype again on monday morning (Canada time) but then she called me like around 9 in the morning and she's like "so you still want to sleep" and I'm like thinking and said "hmm no i'll wake up" just so that I won't wake up late again like yesterday and miss the Team Leader meeting. After talking to my mom for some time, my mom was like "talk to your sister, you haven't talked to her for some time now" and my sister was like "sis, what's your weight" hahaha and obviously my sister being fat, she said "3 kg difference" it was so funny! Then we talked about her DS coz she got a new console now. Whew imagine when I was her age, even we didn't have internet. I only got to play those games from the CD. I only got my first email when I got to junior high. hahaha even my sister said "my friends in school have them" i'm like... "okay then she wanted one obviously because of her friends". sigh... influences. Then my sister told me that my maid would be going back to her home town and getting married and her sister would come and work for her position instead and i'm like so sad. I didn't get to meet her for like a long time and when i go back, she won't be there anymore :( huhuhu

anyways, then when i was talking to my sister, she was like "how are your hamsters" and i posted like an old picture of cotton ball in skype and my sister was like "eeee so cute!!!" hahaha then I posted another picture of cotton ball and she's like "so small" hahhaa and i'm like now it's big and very naughty. hahaha Then, out of my expectation someone really special to my heart actually messaged me through facebook. We actually chatted in msn and I never knew that he actually still cared. I really want to hug him now.. but our distance is so far, it's too difficult. Well, I just want to say "thx for making my day". I thought that I would never find him anymore because when I sms-ed him a few years ago, he never replied me. Turns out that he didn't use his cell anymore. I feel so happy now. I'm blessed that I got to meet him. Well, any girl who is going to end up with him, will be a very lucky girl. He cares a lot now. I wish that I could be with him but I can't. Well maybe if we were fated to be together, then I will.

So then I went to the team leader meeting. Now I've been listening to "Tell me it's real - K-Ci and jojo" because I just can't believe that this is real. Everything is coming back all over again. All the memories that happened. I feel very blessed. The first time that we actually talked after that day being a path liner. Well, if he reads this blog, I wish that he knows that I really treasure him a lot.

I'm gonna update my blog again next time when something happens. I just felt that today was very meaningful to me. Especially the things that he told me. I wished that time would never end. I'm also flattered because he gave me something that no one could have. Hopefully, when I go back to Jakarta one day, I can actually go out with him (maybe like on a date haha).

okay i have to stop day dreaming now. Anyways, I'm gonna try to think about my next CS homework again now.

xoxo
Cuppycake

So yesterday was Jane's birthday :D woohoo Happy birthday Jane !!
She came to waterloo on saturday suddenly. I was kind of shock but not in a bad way. :p haha She was bored in Toronto. I was very happy though hehe :D Then we, me, Jane and Angeline, went to bomber but the "bouncer" was so bad.. :( huhuhu Jane forgot her ID and he's like "i can't let you in" pfft... i was like -.-"

Then yesterday I went to bubble tea with Priscilla coz she's moving to Toronto. :( that's bad.... so we took pictures and like planning stuff for her cousin's birthday.

Yesterday was the season finale of the bachelorette. It was unexpected but it's also cool though :p hahaha I was like watching from 8 till 11 pm and right now I'm supposed to be sleeping but I'm not. I'm going to be doomed!!!

I'm crossing my fingers right now to get a job off-campus or on campus whichever comes first. It's a tough world.. I have to fight for it ^^ I gotta sleep now

Good night :D
xoxo
Cuppycake

today is another friday already. so fast since last week. it feels like holiday just finished yesterday probably because I didn't have class until wednesday :p hehe So, I went to toronto as planned last week and managed to meet Tania ^^ well, instead of coming back on saturday, I came back on sunday. It's a good thing though :D hohoho I got a hair cut and Jane dyed her hair. Pretty ^^ So then on Tuesday, I volunteered for Canada day in the food tent. Turns out that both my arms got some weird big red dots like mosquito bites. Probably it's the oil pfftt... well I used this new gel that I bought called the after sun gel from banana boat. It's actually quite good. My part of my face also got so dried.. I don't understand what's going on with my skin right now. My face is so dry, my arms are like so dry that it has small bumps that if you scratch them, it will go to other places also. Actually I use skin cream, it reduces them but it's quite disgusting for me >< hopefully it will get better soon

so i managed to deal with everything (i wrote in facebook that i was trying to settle some stuff). sigh now everything's back to normal.

When i was in toronto, Jane actually introduced me to a new taiwan tv series called "fated to love you". Now I'm addicted to it :P huahahaha.. Dylan is so CUTE!!!!!!!!! and well, Cun Xi is not that cute but he's okay the first time you see him :p hehe now I'm putting the sound track on my page coz i'm liking it. I feel like there is only 3 songs in that entire series coz i feel like i've heard all the songs in every episode. :p lol

anyways, i'm gonna try finishing my statistics assignment or do something else now ^^ i'll write again later

xoxo
Cuppycake

Well, today I actually went to school. So, I went to my TA's office hours. Well, turns out that I lost quite a few marks on my midterm. duh!! hopefully I still pass with good marks. ><>< it's so difficult. :( huhuhu

I wish there's something for me to do or at least let my brain work so I can continue doing my CS assignment ><>< I'm planning to go to Toronto on friday so I wouldn't be writing for quite a few days :p ^^

ok so maybe later if I feel like it, I'll write back again. I don't know somehow, it feels calming/soothing to write on my blog :D

xoxo
Cuppycake

So, I just wrote a poem about what I'm thinking right now :D well it's dedicated to someone ^^ that I'm starting to like.. <3
tell me what you think in the cbox ok :D

Love is so difficult
Love is about ups and downs
Love is about the tears of sadness
and the tears of happiness

Why is it when I first saw you,
I felt nothing,
but after some time,
these feelings started growing

do you have this same feeling
do you have any idea
how painful it is for me
to see you but we seldom talked

that day,
I felt like a little kid
who got a gift
a special gift

is it just a dream
or is it real
is it just for a while
or is this for sure

I don't know
what's right or what's wrong
I don't want to get hurt again
after finding out that you might be the one

at last!! I'm done with the CS midterm :D phew.. I'm just so happy right now hopefully I can pass that midterm with a good mark. Now, I'm crazy about programming. I just don't know why ><

so yesterday, aku pulang sama taku. Jalan pulang bareng. hahaha awkward abiezzz!!! but I'm happy :D so, while I was walking back, my TA was asking about this question and I couldn't concentrate (don't know why) and I just kept on answering his questions wrong. so embarrassing! anyways, I want to write about today.

So, after my class CS class at 2:20 pm, I decided to go to the computer lab to try making the mips program for the last time because I didn't try that particular question. So then I actually managed to do it pretty well and I'm so proud of myself :D hehe well maybe little errors but at least I managed it. Then so, I went upstairs to look at the last term's midterm to study. Well before that, I put my bag inside the classroom where I'm going to write my test in. Then like when I was walking back to that class, from far away I saw like a short guy with pink shirt with a black box, and I was thinking "okay, this must be the proctor". Well, because I wasn't using my glasses, it turns out that the guy is a woman and she was like "oh we are going to have exam here" and I'm like "yea i know I'm going to be in this class" then she's like "thx" and i'm like =.=". Like what's the thx for?

Then I went outside of the class again and met my friend, Joey. Then I asked him like a question in the past midterm paper. Then when I was walking back towards the class, that lady was like "we have a test can you put out your bag" and I'm like =.=??? Usually the proctors would let us put our bags inside and this lady was so annoying I swore like I felt I had the worse time in my entire school life. She's like the Mrs. Qiao from CIC. Seriously so annoying!! In my mind I was like "where's the TA or the prof" coz they're like the best people that I've ever had for teaching me. But after a while, I didn't see her anymore but the prof came into the class for a while. Well, throughout the test, I kept on answering the midterm's question, so actually I would only look up when I get stuck or I finished flipping through the pages for the first time.

And when I flipped through like almost the last page, I got to this question. The question that I actually asked my professor from the day before.. the time when I asked him questions for like an hour. I'm like so happy and I felt so lucky. And that question that my TA talked about the day before, something like that also came out.. In my mind, i was like "I'm so lucky". And like all the questions that I've been asking is actually worth it :D hehe just so happy ^^ can't explain how I feel right now. Well, obviously I won't get a perfect mark but at least I should be able to pass this midterm. It would be so terrible if I didn't. I'd be so angry!! ><

So now I'm just listening to my music and just writing my blog. I'm so angry because I'm having breakouts. I don't know why ><>< why now!!! sigh.. so now my face have this acne cream. lucky tomorrow there's no school so I can put it all over my face like a lot and I don't need to go out of my apt.

I'm planning on doing my CS assignment tomorrow or now maybe. I don't know :p hehe well.. I have to do it ASAP before friday because then I can ask my TA questions about the assignment and ask him to explain whatever the prof was teaching from the start of the assignment topic. Don't know why I haven't been listening properly to the prof for a few days. Well, I remember some stuff, maybe understand some stuff but like not the whole thing. So I have to revise again. it's okay :D I'm in a good mood so it's all good :D I also have to start my STAT assignment also if not I'll be screwed like the first assignment for stats.

anyways, I got to do something now. Maybe start that CS assignment. I'll write later again :D

xoxo
Cuppycake